Friday, January 23, 2026

In Defense of the Public School

This week we had our initial referral meeting for an Independent Education Plan (IEP)/504 Plan for my son. On the same day, I received an email from our school system superintendent that administrators from another elementary school in our district had been indicted for an incident in 2024 where an autistic student was tied to a chair with a jump rope. Now, you might think that my first inclination is to pull my son out of public school and put him in private school. Especially since we are talking classroom intervention and modifications for my son. But you would be wrong. Instead, I felt very strongly to write my defense for the public school system. 

Let's start with some fun, yet very conflicting information about me. I am a Christian, I believe in God and I believe in the Bible. I grew up in church and still go to church. In elementary through middle school, I went to a private Christian school that was also the church I attended (that my parents still attend) and then transferred to public school for high school. That change happened because I wanted to be a geneticist in eighth grade. I thought my cousin Jen was the coolest and she did cool things like that. I did not realize how much science and math would be involved in genetics and eventually learned I was much more a liberal arts degree kind of gal. I went on to get an undergraduate degree in English (FAR from math and science!) and found myself with a career in affordable housing. I now have a Master's in Public Administration (MPA) and both my husband and I are government employees. I am very much what you would call a bleeding heart. I work in welfare. I am a walking, talking Code of Federal Regulations for HUD programs. I am a nerd in so many different ways, but today, we are going to discuss the liberal, civic nerd side of me. 

Last year, when we started noticing some of my son's struggles with school, I went to my favorite resource for all things education - my neighbor. Both of her sons are on the spectrum. She is an amazing advocate for them and kids on the spectrum and also started her own app. What I remember most from that conversation was this statement, "I would start with the public school. They can't turn you away, they have to help you." And that is the basis for this post. 

During my MPA, I took an economics class that I wholeheartedly believe should be required for every adult to take before they are allowed to vote. And it explained the concept of public goods, market failures, and when government steps in. Public goods are those things that everyone benefits from and uses, you can't exclude people from using them, and one person using it doesn't stop someone else from using it. Because of this, it's not properly funded because you end up with a lot of free-riders that take advantage of the good. A market failure is when you can no longer pay for the thing that people need because without being able to exclude people, some are not paying for it and some are, which makes a poor overall outcome financially. At that point, the government steps in. Education is one of those things. We need for children to be educated because they are our future economy. At it's core, public education is a public good because everyone can use it. One child using the system does not preclude other children from benefitting from the same system, but because of economic differences, not everyone can pay the same amount for a good education. That gap is the market failure. Which is why the government provides funding for public education. 

Now, let's get to the juicy part of this post. School choice vouchers are not a public good and, therefore, in my opinion, should not be subsidized by the government. I say that as a person that went to private school. I have friends that send their children to private school. I am in no way against your family's decision to send your children to private school. But public funding of private schools through school vouchers is not a public good. Private school don't have to take everyone and they are taking funds away, or are competing, with public schools. 

Let's start with the "they don't have to take everyone" part. Most private schools have religious ties, so they have an application process to accept the student. They are private, so they are able to choose the students they want to accept.  They want to teach their curriculum, which sometimes is based on religion, so they are particular about the students and families that they bring in. That is not a bad thing. They also don't want to have behavior issues and want to be considered a good school. None of these things are bad. But what they are not is inclusive. I'll add another layer to that. We chose to go through private testing for my son. I work in government, I know how slow moving a government system can be and I wanted to get things moving to give him the best chance for success. When I called the psychologist that was recommended by our pediatrician, they asked if we were at a public or private school. A private school requires full academic testing, but public school does not. We paid only for the ADHD testing, which was $1,500 out of pocket and is not covered by insurance. I don't know how much the full academic testing would cost out of pocket, but it's certainly more than what we already paid. The requirement for academic testing for private schools is not based on the initial finding from the ADHD testing, but a general requirement for all students that are in need of any testing. That's a barrier for a kid or family that needs extra help. That's a reason for a private school to not accept that student. 

As stated before, I don't have an issue with school choice. I don't have a problem with parents choosing the school they decide is best for their child. But the private school, who can choose the students it accepts, is now providing competition for funding for public schools, which have to accept all students. A public good is one that if someone participates, it doesn't hinder someone else from participation. That is true for public school, but not the same for school choice vouchers. A school voucher competes with public school dollars. In 2024, our school district had massive issues when bus drivers and other school employees were given raises, but then subsequently those raises were taken back when it was determined there wasn't budget for a raise. Not only was the money supposed to be paid back, but they also changed how employees' years of service were counted, which, for public sector employees can be a huge change to your benefits and pay. North Carolina does not even have a state budget, currently. But the state put $625 million dollars (million!) into school choice vouchers for 2024-2025. That's money that does not go into the public school system and goes directly to schools that choose the students they want to accept. 

Now, back to my morning this week. We met with the school principal, school psychologist, the exceptional children (EC) coordinator and my son's teacher. My son's teacher has been in communication with me since the beginning of the school year regarding his learning and we have worked together to address multiple problems long before the testing and diagnosis. My son's first grade teacher was also a huge advocate and tutored him after school and helped teach him how to test better. During the meeting, his current teacher was able to give updates on progress he has made and the concerns we still have. The school psychologist was able to help us figure out how to meet my son's needs with intervention and modifications within the existing framework for a 504 Plan. Our next step is to have the 504 Plan meeting. Now, because I also work in government, I know we still have a ways to go. But everyone in that room was on the same team. My son having a 504 Plan does not preclude anyone else from having a 504 Plan, or an IEP, that needs it. Those teachers and school staff exist to support my son and other kids in the school system that need that assistance. And, honestly, we have been met with help and an eagerness to figure out how to make my son successful each time. But I am also advocating for him on a regular basis. 

The child that was tied to a chair with a jump rope is in the same school system as my son. That child is on the spectrum. I have learned more about how to handle my son's ADHD diagnosis, what it involves and strategies for success, in the past two months than I knew possible. But I also had the resources to pay out of pocket to get my son tested. My husband and I have jobs that we can take the time for these meetings and appointments without fear of losing our jobs. I have a Master's degree and work in the government system, so I understand how things work. And we have so many people that are giving me advice and what pitfalls to avoid. I am able to maneuver around these barriers. And, if I wasn't, I also have the ability to put my child in a different school, if needed. But not every parent has that option. And our public schools' budgets are continuously getting cut, our teachers aren't paid enough, and there isn't training and support needed for teachers and other resource staff. But they continue to take all the kids. They continue to complete IEP and 504 Plans for all students that need them. Because that is a public good and that is what the government does. But competing with that public good is the private school market (which is not a market failure). And we keep voting for it or voting for people that support giving public dollars to a private market and the vulnerable kids are the ones that pay the price. These are the same kids, that without intervention, might need government assistance later. Government assistance that costs dollars that our current government system, much less one when our kids are adults, doesn't have. Preparing kids, providing support in the early and formative years, especially the vulnerable kids, is one of the easiest ways we can help them be successful adults. Successful adults drive a prosperous economy.

For those that take advantage of the school choice vouchers, I don't blame you. You should take advantage of opportunities to help your family financially. But in terms of good use of public funds, school choice vouchers do not fit the definition of a public good. While people are screaming about government debt, we are also supporting families that have the option and means to send their children to a different school, and were most likely already doing so, while the children of the families without those options and means suffer. Government spending should benefit the entire economy, which includes those that the market has failed.    

Sunday, January 18, 2026

The Book that Took Two Years to Finish

Back in 2020, anxiety hit hard and I stopped watching tv shows and started watching mostly YouTube. At that point, I went down a make-up rabbit hole and didn't come up for a few years, but since then I've ventured into other YouTube spaces, including video essays. I enjoy them because they are usually on a specific subject and are longer, like a tv episode. Since I enjoy these types of video essays, when I found the book "Freaks, Gleeks & Dawson's Creek" at a local bookstore that promised to be like those video essays, but centered on nostalgia, I figured it would be a hit. 

It was not. 

According to my reading app, Fable, I started the book on July 7, 2024. I finished it January 9, 2026. More like a year and a half, but still. For a person that can read romance books in a day, two if it's a long one, and hefty history books in a week or so, that is a ridiculous amount of time. I enjoyed the topic. I enjoyed the writing. So what the heck, Sarah?

Since finishing the book, I've considered why a) I never actually moved it into Did Not Finish (or DNF) status and b) why I finally deemed it was worth finishing a year and a half later. 

My main issue is the way the book is set up. My one and only 2024 New Year's Resolution was to read one non-smutty romance book a month. Not even kidding. And I kept it! But in that, I was trying out a bunch of different genres, including non-fiction. I'd never really read non-fiction before. I am not a fan of self-help books. I'm inherently a story person, but I also like to jump around and read multiple books at once. I believe I'm what they call a "mood reader." This book is set up like 7 long essays instead of chapters. For me, that makes it hard to pick up and read when I'm in the mood and then set it back down. It doesn't feel like there's a good stopping point, so I have a hard time picking it up to start knowing that. I didn't move it into DNF status because when I did read the book, I enjoyed it. I learned a lot about television in that time and enjoyed the behind the scenes look at shows I grew up watching. I also loved piecing together information like the usual crew in Judd Apatow movies (Rogen, Segel, etc) were all originally from Freaks and Geeks. I wanted to finish the book. It was just hard to find a time. I finally finished it this year because I set a new challenge for 2026 of reading two non-fiction books a month and I already had a head start on this one. Easy peasy. 

While I like video essays, it turns out, I don't really like books in essay form. I like chapters. I like clear and easy places to start and stop. I will always have at least two books going on at once and not being able to easily switch between them is a no-go for me.

I've learned a lot about my reading preferences in the past two years. I still really enjoy a quick, easy romance novel. I am not a huge fantasy fan. I love the Fourth Wing series and enjoyed A Court of Thorns and Roses, but I couldn't really ever get into the Throne of Glass Series. And the romantasy books I've really enjoyed are hated by most hard-core romantasy readers because they don't have the massive world building (which is why I like them). I love a good mystery or pyschological thriller. I love to listen to memoirs and biographies. I've also learned that I enjoy audiobooks, but only when driving. It's been fun to try new genres out, find new favorite authors and find out what I don't like. 

One of the genres I've been into the past year or so on YouTube is conscious consumerism. It's mostly related to beauty and fashion, but now that reading has become cool again thanks to BookTok, it also applies to buying books. A big part of why I picked up "Freeks, Gleeks & Dawson's Creek" in the first place was cause the cover was darn cute and made all of my early 2000s coral and mint dreams come true. I was in a cute, local book store, it was a cute cover and bam, it came home with me. This happens in regular book stores too because now special editions and sprayed edges can be found anywhere. Books are so fun and pretty now and you want to buy them and display them. But, the truth is, most of my reading is on the Kindle or the Kindle app on my phone. I don't need to buy all these books because they are pretty. I don't prefer to read them in that form. However, I also still subscribe to The Bookish Box which sends me special edition books once a month. So while I've learned what I do and don't like and do and don't need, I'm also still getting pretty special editions sent to me. Balance!

I'm proud of myself for finishing this book. I'm also really excited to move it off my bookshelf because I know for a fact that I will never pick it up again. Memoirs, biographies and books about ships are my jam. Essays about tv shows, not so much.  

Tuesday, January 6, 2026

2026 Blog Resurrection

I am resurrecting my blog. I will not address how many times I have said this, tried this, and then failed to do anything with the blog. But that is also the beauty of a hobby, you aren't really failing if you drop something for a while. 

The idea to resurrect the blog came to me this morning in the place where all great ideas are born: the shower. But my need to write, to create, to talk about some things and get them out of me, has been sitting there for a while. My mom retired at the end of July 2025, but the university she worked at didn't have an official retirement for her until December. I attended that celebration and one of her colleagues, who is also a writer, asked me if I still wrote. I laughed it off. Writing, who has time for that? I write policies and programs and emails where I work really hard to explain things in a non-snarky way. But actual writing, for me? Nah. Again, who has time for that?

Then in November, we had my son tested for Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD) and he was formally diagnosed. There are so. many. feelings. that go with that as a parent. And this is not the place for those feelings because those belong to me and, eventually, my son. But I have also spent a lot of time trying to learn about ADHD, what it is and isn't, and how I can better equip my son so that he can be successful. That I want to talk about! There is so much information and so many people want to help, but it can also be very overwhelming. I'd also like to help others by sharing what I've learned, but I don't want to talk about it in person. I want to write about it. For me, talking is exhausting, which I'm sure you find hilarious if you know me, but talking about big things exerts a lot of energy. Nothing gets replaced. Writing about big things is like hugging my mom while I dump everything on her, but without having to dump everything on my mom. I get the catharsis of writing, which replaces the energy spent to share. 

Finally, there is nerdy Sarah. She's real nerdy. I got back into reading in 2023. I was an English major in college and I loved Russian literature and big sweeping novels. Then I got a big girl job in Raleigh with a lot of traveling around the state and I was in graduate school at night. Then I got married. Then I had a baby. None of those things are conducive to reading. Then that baby grew up into a kid, who went to kindergarten and I got a new job. I could breathe again! So I started reading. And I read brainless romances. The end of the year wrap-up for my Goodreads was literally a bunch of half naked men. I have no shame in that. I still love me a good romance. But I decided in 2024 that my one and only New Year's Resolution was to read one non-romance book a month. And I kept it! And I found out that I love some nerdy nonfiction history books. I love them, read them and have no one to talk to about them! Aaron tries to listen, but at some point his eyes glaze over and he's done. I also randomly posted about them on my Instagram, but that didn't give me nearly the real estate that I wanted to dump all my nerdy thoughts. 

All of this lead to the resurrection of the blog. It's not going to be pretty. I'm probably not going to try and put a bunch of pictures in like I did before. I genuinely do not care if anyone reads this but me. But I do miss writing and I want a place to dump all the nerdy Sarah thoughts, what I learned about ADHD today and whatever else my little heart desires. Cause this is my internet real estate. 

Also born in the shower this morning were my goals for 2026. I rarely make resolutions and, if I do, they are usually tied to something like a hobby. I came up with 3 for this year and I actually want to try and keep up with them:

  1. Read 25 non-fiction books.  I saw a reel where someone said they don't need to set a reading goal because they like to read, they need to set a goal to go outside and touch grass. This is the brain equivalent of touching grass. I want to read 25 non-fiction books in 2026. That's about 2 a month. I do a lot of these books via audiobook, which works great when you travel for work like I do. I hope to continue my journey into naval history (I have no idea why this is a thing, but here we are) and how to work with my neuro-spicy kid. 
  2. 4K Minutes on my Peloton app. This sounds a lot more insane to non-Peloton people than it really is. By the numbers, this breaks down to 333 minutes a month, 83 minutes a week or approximately four 20 minute workouts a week, which is where ideally I would like to live. I'm really just looking for a way to be more consistent. And the app covers just going on walks, doing actual classes and using the bike. For me, this is doable and will help me be consistently active, which I want and need. 
  3. Write a blog once a month. I hope that I do this more than once a month, but consistently taking time to write creatively will be a huge change for me. 
There are other things I want to do. I'm starting a bible study with the women at church and I want to actually use my nerdy The Bible Maps Handbook as part of that. I want to eat better. I want to drink more water. All of those things. But these three are just for me. I'm really good at making lists of things I need to do. And I'm really good at doing the things I want to do that are really quick and easy, but I'm really bad at being intentional about the things I want to do to grow that take time and effort. And this seemed like a really good place to start.